“My beloved responded and said to me,
‘Arise, my darling, my beautiful one,
And come along.
‘For behold, the winter is past,
The rain is over and gone.
‘The flowers have already appeared in the land;
The time has arrived for pruning the vines,
And the voice of the turtledove has been heard in our land.
‘The fig tree has ripened its figs,
And the vines in blossom have given forth their fragrance.
Arise, my darling, my beautiful one,
And come along!’”
Song of Solomon 2:10-13
I am not sure if I have every read the above scriptures until today, but I will say Holy Spirit never read them to me until today. I was just amazed at the intimate way the words spoke to my heart. In my widowhood I find I miss the private conversations with my husband above all else. Those moments of sharing about our day, how a certain scripture just made us go WOW… the sweet nothings husbands and wives should be sharing with each other and no other. I have learned through experience if the person you turn to first when the bad and the good occur in your life is not your spouse, things will not remain the same after the passion of the flesh wears off. I said all that to say this… I feel I am being wooed by Father God, not in the way man sees wooing but a wooing of my heart and spirit to come closer to Him. A wooing that says He wants to share some of the secrets of His heart with me. A wooing that says, I know your circumstances are grim at the moment… but truly child I want the best for you. My house may be one step away from foreclosure, the electric bill may be almost half of my total monthly income… yet HIS words speaks to the real need in me… to know my true worth in His love. To know He is faithful and all will be okay in His timing, not mine. The word says to seek first His Kingdom and all else will be added, it is hard to do that when the circumstance of life are chasing you down and demanding pay me! Yet He says yes child seek Me first, even in the lack, even in the need seek ME!!!! Arise out of the ashes and seek ME… Arise my beloved and follow ME. I think I will accept this invitation to be intimate with my Father God.
well, this is my second attempt my first comment was lost to the Ethenet. I found your Blog through Wilson who wrote a blog about Drummond Thom; I attended his services often and took his courses. It was a rare season. I have been in a spiritual cave for five and a half years. We lost our youngest son, he was 22 in a motorcycle accident. I wanted to write as I see you recenlty lost yoru spouse; my husband has been unemployed for over a year; we may soon face losing the home we raised our kids in; I have been very ill for 2 years; we are in a squeezing time as it is in birthing process; these are challenging times; I recently penned my pain and wanted to let you view it at NO COST. Grief is grief. www.smashwords.com I also have a Blog I am trying to start for the book; I am going to make a new post this weekend ; last night for the first time in years I logged on the Mahesh and Bonnie Chavda conference. John Arnott speaking on life and death, irony, uh? Then talked about the church of Philadelphia not the normal Arnott spin; I had a season that I travelled with Benny Hinn out fo thestates; Morris Cerullo - attended the Brownsville Revival; but now I see much of that was vanity; how much survived? How much man made? I don't want those days back; the Lord had told me I would go nto the highways and byways; you talked of the 'broken' this ws what He was talking about as well; He recently showed me the laptop and the internet/travel - I may be seeing light crack through my cave....if you like please take a look at my take on Grief -
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